Courting Freedom: Reflections on working with Lisa Jones

This is a companion piece to the guest blogging by Lisa Jones on my studio blog (scroll down when you get there) : http://yogaandniaforlife.wordpress.com/. Read this first, or read that first and I look forward to hearing from any of you that have been working with breathwork.
Breathwork took me by surprise.  I was drawn to working with Lisa Jones from an irrational place. Or maybe a place of Mystery. I did not know why but that I needed to work with her.  I had done some Holotropic related breathwork a few years back so I sort of knew what I was getting myself into. What I did not realize is how much a supportive, active breathwork practitioner could bring to the equation.  To be fair, I think this is also my time. My time to open up to more life, my time to release lifetimes of holding on to… As I do it with my body, my mind rebels, but so what. I am looking for freedom, pure and simple. And nothing will stop me, especially not me.
Resistance comes up each time I work with her. I think to myself that it is so much easier to stop, to quit, to stay where I am. It is such a metaphor for everything in my life. I am experiencing “comfort level” in a purely sensory way. And moving past it is not easy, and I would even nature to say not “natural”. Amazing that I can be accustomed to being shut down in certain places of my beings and experience that as natural. Normal, actually. And all those experiences that I look for to open me up, those seemingly rebellious actions that harm me more than liberate me (and often hurt those around me…) just so that I can have the fake experience of freedom!
This work, however, is the real thing. I am breaking through. I am breaking through my resistance. I am breathing into part of my body that have been closed to me for so long. I wake up in the morning and feel a fuller breath. And there is nothing more delicious than a full breath.
Doing this work with Lisa has totally changed my body and my relationship to the body-mind connection also. I have known and felt for a long time the relationship between my thoughts and my body, how thinking something could make me feel tense or sad or happy, or whatever. I could sense my mind limiting what I could experience in my body. However, I had not realized the relationship could have been just as powerful the other way around. What I found working with Lisa is that my body was affecting my mind. That stuck patterns in my body were leading my mind into certain loops so that I could feel the emotions that were stuck in me. This is the body wanting to heal itself for sure, however, not knowing this, I would actually believe the stories I was making up so that I could feel the body sensations that were familiar to me. This is where I have been breaking through. Now I am more aware of when the triggering is coming from this place, am able to take a deep breath into it before or instead of shutting down. I  see how the places I have broken through with the breathwork make it so that my body no longer goes to those places in the same way that my mind can change where it goes.
With this open space, I react to the world around me in new ways. More freedom. The more there is, the more there is.  Spiriting in my breath. How much better does dancing feel? Whoa!
Love and breathing into the next highest vibration,
Maria